Taking it all in...

Last night I laid next to you and took you all in.  Your hair line around your face was wet from being in such a deep sleep and your sweet little freshly-bathed boy smell was intoxicating and familiar.  Your pajamas were too short in the legs because you are growing so fast, so tall.  I put my head on your pillow and felt your warmth and listened to your shallow breathing as you were far away in your dreams.  I imagined putting my head on your broad shoulder when you are man but, in the meantime, enjoyed the feeling of your little bony shoulder under my head.  As I took your hand into mine I was reminded of how small you still are.  How fragile and precious you still are.  And I just stayed there.  In the moment that was you. And I promised myself to never forget it.