Friday, March 22, 2013

Meant To Be

Baby number three is a boy!!  We found out at our ultrasound and we are so excited.  Thankfully everything looked great and the doctor says that the baby looks normal and healthy; two things that are absolute blessings.  The baby was moving around so much and at one point I had to get up and go to the bathroom to see if we could get him to move so she could see his heart.  Ultrasounds are amazing.  You can see in such detail all the little inner workings of the baby.  It made me think about grandma and how different her baby's life may have been had they known about his heart defect before he was born.  Angel was with me and it was so cool for him to see the baby, even if he has been feeling it for a couple of weeks.  We got it on tape when we told the boys it was a boy.  Ignacio said that they could now be the Boy Scouts and Emilio followed up by saying they could be a "superhero squad."  They both had smiles ear to ear.  We went out to eat to celebrate and I couldn't stop smiling for hours. 

I have imagined this baby being a boy, partly because I am so used to boys it only made sense it would be boy, but also because I wanted it to be a boy.  Before getting pregnant for the first time I wondered what I would ever do with a boy.  Coming from a household with all women, the thought of parenting a penis was odd.  Then Ignacio came and snuggled into my heart, followed by my little Emilio who has captured my full love and attention since the day he was born.  I love being a mommy to boys.  The relationship is so unique and special and even deeper and greater than I could have ever imagined.  There is a sense of security and safety that having boys brings me...maybe because boys adore their moms in Latino culture and take VERY good care of them. Sure, it would have been a blessing to have a girl.  There are such precious experiences that only a daughter can give you; this is true.  But I can honestly say I don't feel I am missing out.  I am not crying over never buying a prom dress or never watching Angel walk her down the aisle.  In some ways, to be perfectly honest, I am relieved.

And there are benefits to having three boys.  For instance, they can all go to the bathroom together, share clothes, fight over the same girl, have boy time with Angel, share a room and develop a band of brotherhood that, with a girl in the mix, would have left her a little left out. And so the journey continues.  What will he look like?  Who will he look like? How will our family adjust?  How will the boys be with a baby brother? How will their personalities be alike or different? So much to unfold.  For now we are thankful to God for the opportunity for a new addition to our family.  He was worth the wait and there is no doubt he was meant to be. 

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